Unsurprisingly our last cycle was unsuccessful. I think I knew that was the case before I got my period.
I didn’t have any spotting, but the day before by period came I was VERY sad (until I discovered this song, which is so bad it’s amazing and it made me feel instantly better! It’s my new go to song when I’m feeling sad). And I didn’t want to be around anyone other than my husband.
It was a different sadness compared to my last failed ovulation induction cycle where I cried myself to sleep for two and a half nights.
Even though I actually feel good about starting IVF, and believe this was always the path we were going to have to take to have our baby, part of me felt/feels like a failure. Like my body had failed to do the one thing it’s meant to do.
And that’s the thing with trying to conceive. It’s an emotional roller-coaster. Some days you’re feeling great, and then BAM! the next thing you know you’re crying yourself to sleep. And that’s before you add in the extra hormones! IVF meds are going to be INTERESTING.
So recently I treated myself and bought a bangle with my new mantra “You’ve got this”. A wearable reminder to myself as we begin the IVF process that it’s going to work out.
Yes, yes, yes, I know that there are no guarantees, but I believe with every fibre of my being that IVF is going to work for us. This is the most confident I’ve felt about falling pregnant since we started trying to conceive.
It sounds awfully cocky, but sometimes I think you need to be. I can’t imagine starting IVF with any doubt, even though I’m well aware of success rates.
Hence my reminder to myself that we’ve got this.
Do you have any mantras, mottos or positive affirmations to help you get through those harder days?
Until next time,